One Moment in My Life
I don’t know that I could ever pick one moment in my life that changed everything, altered my perception, that defined my life or the world, since I have been fortunate to have many.
The first real epiphany I recall? I was driving my first car in to work. Heading east. The sunrise was exceptionally colorful, filled with golds, reds, against the vibrant blue background. My heart, literally, skipped a beat. I felt I was glowing. I was overly warm and yet I had goose pimples. I knew that I was on my way. To exactly where, I wasn’t all that certain, but I knew that I had recently made some decisions and that those very decisions were setting my feet onto the correct path to lead me to the “rest of my life”. I was seventeen at the time.
I awoke one morning and knew I was pregnant with a girl. I had been a tom-boy all my life. What kind of joke was it that the universe would give me a daughter? I could throw the nicest spiral foot-ball. How was I ever going to pass that on to a girl. To my surprise and delight my daughter has taught me so much of life! Without her, I honestly don’t think I would have been given any other epiphany I ever experienced. Her little life demanded I quit working three jobs and select just one, her life demanded I slow down and smell the roses. I didn’t understand she had been sent as my teacher until she was about four, until then I had the audacity to think I was to teach her!
The first day I rubbed lotion onto the blue feet and legs of my younger sister, that was the day I felt with my whole body that she was actually going to die. It sunk into the pit of my stomach like a rock. She had been battling lung cancer for two years. But, rubbing the lotion onto her feet and legs not only warmed her by moving the blood, it allowed me intimacy with my sister I would all too soon lose.
As my husband pushed the edger up the hill of our sidewalk, sweat running down his brow, shirt as brown as the dirt he was kicking up, snow white hair plastered to his head, I got that warm goose pimply feeling. Oh, some might call that love. For me, it was a realization that I been fortunate to have spent the last twenty years with my best friend. Oh sure, we’ve had some doozies for arguments. We don’t always see eye to eye. But we sure make a good team. When Bob and I work together, we can accomplish anything. I simply had that old “rush” of emotion and positive feelings drop in for a visit.
Over the course of life, you are given many “one moment in life”. Savor each of them. As you fall asleep at night roll them over in your mind relishing each aspect of the moment. These small moments are the result of your decision when you came to the crossroad. The path your feet are taking for the rest of your life.